Holiday,( my very first blog! )

Holiday means ” day of rest from work or study"" . Yes , i’m havin’ it now . During this period i had do a lot of things such as sleep , eat , driving , online , clubbing ,shopping , gethering and watching TV. But what make me unforgotable is the gethering in Q Bar .We have Ive Jen (ah Big), Wai Kong (King Kong), Kuan Kim(3rd Brother),Allan(Cockroach),Chin Hung,Yi Ren (Roommate), Small Kim ,Ah Hoong (my Buddy) ,Fei Yong , Che Yang (Catherin) and some friends at there . After that day , i only reliaze all of my friends were good dancer, serious!!! And we have fun untill 2 a.m . Now gethering for us is not so easy , cause some of us is studying abroad, some of us always go back to Pahang and some of us lazy to go out , so we’re really treasure the time of gethering and here, i hope our friendship can keep forever.

June 7th, 2006 at 8:12 am

Sepet

"Sepet" a movie written & directed by Yasmin Ahmad . Yes i just watched the movie and here i would like to write something about the movie. Living in a multiracial social such as Malaysia everything about race is sensetive , yes included Love. This is a good movie because we can see a lot of thing about Malaysia from this movie. Ah Loong one of the first character ,same name with me , is a pirate-VCD seller who had fallen in love to a Malay girl call Orked.The story was happened in Ipoh, Perak .Ah Loong’s life takes a sudden turn one day when a Malay schoolgirl,

Orked, arrives at his stall. Love blossoms between Orked and Ah Loong, although there are social and racial pressures that stand in their way. In the end, Ah Loong dies in a motor vehicle accident while Orked is going to England to pursue her studies.Yes the ending is sad .One of the part of the movie make me impress is Ah Keong ask Ah Loong why don’t him just tells his true name "Ah Loong" to Oked just because "Jason" is cool.The sence just react the common viewpoint of Malayisa Chinese(excluded who believes in God),that is cool if you have a western name.Funny.Yes the movie have 4 controversies:

There’s a scene where the father and the mother were dancing in their ’sarongs’(a large sheet of fabric, often wrapped around the waist (for men) & above the chest (for women)

A sence where the father and the mother were tackling each other in bed after having sex.
There’s also a scene where the family comb each other’s hair, depicting the laziness of Malays.

Ah Loong didn’t convert to Islam at the end despite his courtship with Orked who is a Muslim.
Ignore the racial and the controversies,this movie is a nice movie,a pure love story ,from the first they know each other, the first dating ,the first call and to the death, the whole story is full of romantic.Of course the movie also ask the government to care about those students who get good result in SPM to help them to finish their study smoothly ,yes for my own opinion, if Ah Loong Got the sholarship to continues his studies,i don’t think he will will become a pirate-VCD seller,insteal he could be a talent to contribute to our country’s development.

Finally, i would to say at here is just take a 90 minutes to watch our national’s movie and you will found out that Hollywood’s movie is nothing.

June 8th, 2006 at 1:28 pm

About today

Today is saturday,normally i will be my hometown from friday to sunday ,but today i stay at KL because i need to go my friend, Chin Hung’s birthday.I woke up on 10.00a.m. today,unbelieveable, it is too early for me just because today Wai Kong ’s house will have a praying so we need to woke up early . After praying , i have lunch together with the monks ,Y Kong’s family and Allan Wong,the lunch just full of fun,cause one of the monk said one of my friend might have a Malay girlfriend in the future(i’m not that convenient to mention the name here ,otherwise i will be die)After that E-ren arrived from Taman Melawati, and 4 of us (kong ,allan,E-ren and me)have spent the whole afternoon to Need For Speed Underground 2,Allan just make the top speed to 725 km/hour do u believe that????Hahaha yes he did it.Crazy Allan.Then we go to Chin Hung’s house around 5p.m. First thing we do when we reached Chin Hung’s house is play basketball,play untill almost die,after basketball,then football,after football then shower,after shower that watch movie,after movie then BBQ……And finally see people play games damn boring and just doing nothing till 3am then we go to "lim tea"and go to CC then write this artical ,so now is almost………7 morning i don think that they will finished they game soon so just hope they can finished the game early cause i m too boring being here man.!>!>!>>!>!>!>


June 10th, 2006 at 3:44 pm

Such a study environment

As we know,the westerner are more creative then easterner,why ?How could this happend?Let’s back to our basic question,that is the difference education system between east and west.I’m not going to discuss this topic as a educationalist but just as a student here.

I had the free education provide by our government since standard 1 to form 3(Form 4&5 i’m studying in private school).What my feeling is i feel like i’m a Study Machine.We had train as As getter.Once you have the most As then you’re success.For instance,when SPM results release,all the papers will publish who is the most As getter in Malaysia,or which school have the most As getter,why why why our papers will only concern about this,nobody is concern about those students who had bad result.Because they (the writers)also trained as As getter.Not only papers,but also parents,teacher and also Education Ministry,like students are born for As.

Actually we have to back to our basic question,What is study?My answer is ,study is the way to let us got the knowledge and learn.Yes that is all.It is simply.But what happened to our country is study is for As.If u go to ask a student :”how could it happended?",the mostly will answer you is :”oh,because the text book is taught like that.” or they cannot give you a proper anwser,yes it is happening around us.Why ,cause they want to get As and ”don’t have much time” to think about WHY.

Actually ,what i m suggest to our Minister is try to reform our education system from pursuiting As to "Indenpendent Thinking".Why?Because we are not able to control or teach every students to avoid something bad like fighting or smoking but we can train they to ”Indenpendent Thinking",let them to able differentiate reality.And also ”Indenpendent Thinking" is good for our science subjects,the teacher should ask "why" but not only keep talking in front,just let the student to ”think”.From think ,then we only could discover something new ,have you discover something new from your text book?(Yes maybe you will discover your text book is make by paper)

Hence,what we have to do is just throw away the viewpoint of study is for As,and just try to think indepandent but not just follow the text book. For Wawasan 2020,now is the proper time to let our young generation to ”think” because they will be the leader on that time,and i also don’t hope our’s future leader dominate our’s country follow what the text books said,it is very terribe.We must have the people like Tun Mahathir or Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi to lead our country and ensure our country can always flourish.

June 18th, 2006 at 11:57 am

Grumbling

It is near to end of this year ,evrything still the same,i still remain me same .
Jay has been released his newest album "Still Fantasy".Very nice for all the new songs,how could he does that?!

2007 Budget has been launched ,fuck it cigarette become more expensive,do this will stop people smoking?No!Useless if the government make it become RM 100,we still smoking.
How come human could’t do anything as they like!?Why good time had gone so fast ?Brothers enjoy your life in Saudi,i was really enjoyed those good moment with you in last few month.Thank you!

Why we have to always do domestic tasks,why we always have to clean room and toilet ,why my home is so untidy,why i got to clean it by myself.why my mother don’t hire me a maid so that i could avoid all this fucking work.

Can somebody answer me why the LRT is always full of passenger.I had to became sardine when i was going to school everyday,everybody were standing so close ,they looked at me,then i looked at them.Why i needed to waited for 2-3 train to got to my destination everyday,i m lazy to wait in the early of the morning.Just add more train!!i had paid it!!I m deserve to have a better service.Dammit!

i was felt ashamed when my friend was talking their national football team.They always talked about why their national could’t got more score .They said their team Korea should’t only got 8 goals in the match against Taiwan,supposed to got 10 goals. They asked how about me,what do u feel to your national team ,i said nothing in next few seconds,then i only said i wish our team could get South-East Asia champion,that is all,nothing else,how come they always talking about world cup,they don’t even talk about Asia Cup!

Could i read newspaper without crime in one day!?Everyday is about raped ,incest,murdered,robbed,war and etc……..it seem like we have no different to living in hell,everywhere is unsafe ,including your house,so tell me where is the safest place to live?
911,today is the 5th annivesary,the twin tower had been hit then collapsed.The world was shocked.But don’t worry New Yorkers,Freedom Tower is coming soon.Yap nobody have the rights to kill especially for those are unarmed.In the name of Anti-Terrorism,Bush put war machine to Middle East.The so-called Anti-Terrorism has began.

But wait,do the America soldier go there for peace?Fight for peace?what the fuck ,it doesn’t make sense to me,a great irony.Pointing someone by gun and say i m here for peace!!!Any different with terrorist???Osama is still freedom ,does a Super-Power Country could’t got a person with your F-16,A-10 or missile?Remember USA is making the new generation to hate themselve.So better stop it now.

OK i gonna stop here if not i will going to suicide.So i just wanna say FUCK to express my feeling here. Bushit!

September 11th, 2006 at 2:23 am

The Things I haven’t Tell

I got the news when i was having Maths class from my sister that you already passed away.I feel depressed and tried not to cry.I didn’t know what to do at the moment,I was blinded .I rushed back to home immediatery.Tell you garnny,I m soundless when i saw you were laying there and you looked so beautiful and peacefully.What i should happy is i hear uncle said that you went away peacefully,no suffered.I alway imagine that I could bring my girlfriend to let you see when I got one,I always imagine you could attend my wedding,now I always imagine that you can give me Aug Pau forever and ever,I wanna play Blackjack with you granny!I can’t hear you call me "Ah Loong Loong" anymore, I miss it so much.Everytime i went to your house I feel happy cause i knew that i still having the love and care from you, granny.I can still remember how are you took care of me when I was sick , you cooked me porridge,take care of me by carefully.How sweet was that!Ya,i dreamed of you,you looked great,and i think you must be very happy at the other world which we don’t know.I can hear youe smile everyday,just around me!I will never forget what you always told me ,you want me to study more and more so that I would never like you.You want me always respect my parent.I will never forget.
What i hoping now is you can rest in peace! And I will always remember you and love you.Goodbye Granny.


March 16th, 2007 at 5:42 am

Mentakablism

Mentakablism , a noun that u cannot find in any English dictionary because it is a noun that created by Meng Loong (also know as Inti boy,but i just feel a little bit being dicrimination,Ah Nick!) Is refers to everything related to Mentakab .Such as its residence,characteristic or etc.
First of all. I would like to introduce what is Mentakab.Mentakab is a city or town??located at the centre of Pahang, the biggest state of Peninsula Melaya.A place to produce Kayu Balak abundantly.So logging is the main source to push this city??town??’s economic.Because of logging,many people has become rich,the demand to Mercedes-Benz is high,so we, I mean Menatakb has the Mercedes-Benz servie center which is unlike the other states normally the service center is set up in their capital city,only Pahang they set up in Mentakab.
And also the logging,the demand toward KOPITIAM is high,(of course the KOPITIAM here i mentioning is traditional KOPITIAM,not that kind of KOPITIAM which sell their products higher price than others traditional KOPITIAM)we have our famous KOPITIAM which is called TAI HIN NGA.
TAI HIN NGA is located at Jalan ??? And running by HO DA YU which is inheriting from his father.The highest of selling of ROTI(bread) in Mentakab is TAI HIN NGA ,and beggest purchaser for butter in MENTAKAB is also TAI HIN NGA because TAI HIN NGA didn’t sell WAN TAN MEE!!!!!(information which is provided by HIN FATT , a frozen-food distributor in Mentakab).Now same as many enterprise , TAI HIN NGA is entering to 3rd generation.Among the sons of HO DA YU ,HO JIN RU is the potential ones to continue the business.
And our night-market is also famous.Why does it famous?why?why?why?Because it is unlike to other night-market,it is open for 7 days per week,30/31days per month and 365/366days per year.That means always open la.It used to be a whole night-market was selling pirate-VCD.But now no any longer.Nothing to feel proud .But now , the night-market has lost his charateractist , don’t ask why,cause i don’t know, maybe i have growth up.
Wait, I m asking Deloan to help me finished this blog.But he said lazy to Diu me.No choice.Have to finished by myself.
But what to tell?

April 6th, 2007 at 12:59 am

You gonna kill me!

It was a happy day for me to attented to Shanyi and Kityi’s Birthday Party and Kaki Corner on last week.We have not see each other for a long time , and we had a fun time.
After having tea with Alan , Shan and Jay then we all go back to our home , of course here i mean my home which is in Pahang .Pahang is a nice place.
After the fucking expensive toll which we have to pay RM5 to MTD then we only can go to East Coast , I drove within 100-120KMH .It was 12.30 am ,road was dark, i was fine , never drunk and relax ,my car is good , nothing was wrong .
Suddenly a pole was appeared in front of me !A long pole !I got no choice ,to avoided it, I only can turn my car, because it was a "big turn" and make my (father)’s car drift from the left to right , then from the right to the left .And my soul was went out from my body , then came back to my body for the short moment.
I can’t calm down, cause i m not Takumi, I just a normal human. i stopped my car at a side, i don’t know what the hell was going on to me , i was just keep talking to the vendors who were the witness for the road show.
Nevertheless , after me, it was a 5-6 cars also been the victims of the pole! To me., i m the lucky one, cause me and the car is fine.But some of them were not that lucky cause they didn’t saw the fucking pole and go through it and finally make their car dameged.
MTD , please clean and keep your road clean especially at night! You gonna kill me, i love my mum a lot !She is so good and beautiful!See , rised the toll fee but nothing improved!Please think about our safety and do your job nicely cause me have been dominate many "pass-by" fees to you!
Ok good night!

May 1st, 2007 at 4:45 am

Honey.

Honey, did you knew that how suffered that i had been waiting for you before I got you.
My life has changed totally since you came into my life.

My sister loves you my parent love you and my entire friend love you too. You have such a beautiful face.

Honey, you are the only one who will sing all the songs that I like to me. Like Jay Chow or Janice’s song. You would never blame me if I ask you to repeat and repeat again.
Honey, you so understanding. You would travel with me wherever I want to go. I ask you stop then you just stop, you would never ask me why.

I can see that you have a good relationship with my family. You go out with my sister, my mother oh….even my father. I seldom see that my dad will go out with some one that he doesn’t know much. But you did!!!

Honey. You bring a lot of fun to me. Now I can bring you to see all my friends without concern about the time.

Honey, you don like to shopping, you don concern about dressing, you just wear the same shirt every time!
But the only thing is , Honey the food that you like is expensive. And become more expensive and expensive. Fortunately your food will be finished slowly if you didn’t get angry. Once you got angry, I need to pay extra.

I’m so happy that you can go back to my hometown at every weekend together with my. You do bring a lot of joy to me honey, I just can’t imagine if my life without you.
I will try and do my best to you so that you can keep beautiful and charming. Thank you honey.

Mucks… CCA 2826.

July 9th, 2007 at 7:23 am

A letter from KOREA.

It is Malaysia!

The Unpredictable occurrence

In the early 2004 , about April , My father gave our family news that he might be sent to Malaysia as nominated COO ( Chief operational officer ) to a malaysian governmental company which was related to manufacturing LCD monitor. , but our family , who had never been to overseas before , did consider this news a new challenge.

The First step to Malaysia

After several monthes my father left for Malaysia , I took set my foot to Malaysia for the first time during summer vacation in 2004. Actually , before visiting Malaysia my major thoughts and impressions as to Malaysia were “ undeveloped nation “ , however such stupid stereotype was utterly changed as I could see unknown things staying in Malaysia for 3 weeks ぱ various multicultural backgrounds ( Malay , Chinese , Indian ) , modern civilization ( KLCC ) , dynamic lifestyle and many things unseenable in my mother country and they just shocked me and gave me the answer that seeing the reality is believing the truth. During this short vacation , I did not catch lots of chances to see , feel and experience more , but I could catch one important chance that I might start to live in Malaysia along my father’s business and my studies for being international.

The second step to Malaysia

After dream-like visiting Malaysia for 2 weeks , I could not forget good impressions and memories in Malaysia while studying but that did not matter because I was scheduled to visit Malaysia again in the upcoming Januaryˇˇ

In that January , My father moved to another condominium located in Mon’t Kiara from Shala lam. Wow , Mon’t kiara it is just stunning , beyond my expressions , everything was green! surrounded by many trees and fantastic gardens!. Wowˇ it is totally impossible to forget the first impressions about Mon’t kiaraˇ.. Outside the condominium there were more things to see — Mon’t kiara plaza and Desa Sri hartamas. I never thought that both two places were going to be my place for eating and enjoying ( I met with lovely Char koew teow first time in this place.. I still miss them and how come korean government never let char koew teow into Korea? )
During this second visit all I did is enjoying and traveling around KL thanks to those behavior I started knowing about Kuala Lumpur more and more as well as other places such as Bukit Bintang (for the young ) and Jalan Ampang ( for the Korean ). With these basic life pattern , I went back to korea expecting coming back with a big challenge

The real step to Malaysia

In 2005 24th March. This day may be one of the most historical day for my entire life as I was supposed to go to Kuala Lumpur to begin new life and meet new challenges. After about 7 hrs of flight , I arrived at Malaysia ,third time , but everything looked new with no reason my father welcomed me saying “ Start new life “. Again in Mon’t kiaraˇ I felt just happyˇ living in such placesˇ.never thought to be reality in my life but just came true!
Learning English

After seven days of break I was enrolled in a private(?) english educating centre called ( ESL ) and all I did is eating! Cause it was located nearby KLCC!!! But after class I just went back home directly because peple knew I was a good student far away from the bad
Welcoming 2006 World cup overseas

Well , I never thought I would welcome 2006 World cup in overseas , but I did! In fact I did not join in Korean community only to support the Korean national team but I just enjoyed the world cup itself with several friends smoking Sisha , eating char koew teow , sate and sharing our topicsˇ

Enrolling to British council

After quitting school for personal matters I enrolled myself to British council because , If I stay at home it is very clear that I would be very last without doing anything , so that’s why I enrolled with this thoughts “ To avoid laziness , just go out somewhere every morning “ and I was instructed to attend the classes from August

A Chinese guy

On the first day as you know when a person comes into a new place with no one familiar the person may keep calm until breaking the iceˇ that’s what I did and I could not stand to keep calm long I started to talk to a guy beside defeating my shyness and the guy was meng long and I never thought this guy would be very friendly with me ( how could it be possible ). With repeating talks and talks , both of us established our relationship flexibly.

Laksa Hell

One day I was induced to try Laksa — which damaged my toung seriously as well as my mental health. Actually , I only knew that Laksa existed in the world but did not exactly know about it. Finally , I tried.. but I said “ what kind of taste is it? Did they add some cosmetic substances? “ Oh , god! My toung was dancing here and there I could not accept it , no , wanted to forget the whole situation! That night I talked to myself “ how can the people eat Laksa “ and Laksa still remains mysterious food in my life even so farˇ

Time to seperate

In September the whole family was in a situation to withdraw from Malaysiaˇ We did not know actually that my father’s business was becoming declined as the governmental official did not cooperate with doing corrupted thingsˇI was shocked that I had to leave behind these good memoriesˇbut it was my fateˇ Chances’re always coming but the responsibility of catching it is mineˇ.. Even in airport I talked to Meng long over the phone to the last minuteˇˇˇˇˇ.. On airplane I just slept remembering good memoriesˇ.. but it I was ok I still keep in touch with meng long thanks to internet which is a valuable treasure of modern scienceˇ and I announce that I will visit Malaysia next year to see this Chinese guy!



August 10th, 2007 at 7:36 am

MAMA

Mama, i love you , but where are you bringing me to?
Mama, i m so scared!You bringing me to somewhere that i never used to be.
Mama,why are you so silent?
Mama,look at me!
Mama,why?why the uncle is holding a knife?
Mama,mama Ah….the knife inset into my body!
Mama…look at me….it is painful…mama…
Help me mama…ma…ma…
Mama, don’t burn me ….
Outch….is hot……
Mama….
Goodbye ma…..see you in hell.
But mama?why are you so cold-blooded…
you killed you own child…Mama…I m call you Mama,
the person who brought me to the world….
But now you terminate life like such a brutal way…
Ma..ma.. goodbye..love you…

August 10th, 2007 at 7:44 am

Fast ? No Is slow now.

Today i woke up so early.If no mistaken, this is the first time that i woke up at 8am at this semester. Surprisingly i didn’t go back to bad. After reading news, i went to the balcony , was thinking to smoke but some internal voices are asking me not to do it so, Since i have quit for such a long time.Just keep looking to the trees and enjoying the dawning.
Was thinking what should i do for the current moment.Oh maybe Sim City 4000,but the time is not suitable.
Keep on thinking what have i did.Oh got it! 18 and 19 is the fantastic experience in my life.There are peaks and foots in my life.Someone may says you need to underwent something then you only will growth, i think that is right . Feel like very old , but that isn’t a bad thing to underwent that.
Used to be,always wanted be fast.From driving home to play Sim City .Pursuiting the feeling of fast.It was nice to see the car going to 200 of KPH , felt like the car is not moving but is the road.But now i can feel that The God of Death actually was waving to me and try to ask me to accompany him.Ha!
How to be fast in Sim City? Of course, the time in the game must be faster than normal one,then only can see those buildings build faster.The other fast in the game is using cheat code called "Money Trainer", use to be very satified when i can developed a very large city.But somehow, i also still feeling empty inside, because it wasn’t been built based on my ability.
Now i have learn how to be slow.Slowness had never ever occurred in my life before .Slowness is a very strange idea for me, or, slowness has never appeared in my dictionary.But i have just added it.Still remember my mum always say that i always rushed,never thinking twice before doing something.He..
I only know slow can bring you so many benefits.I always wanted to break my personal record from the Gombak Toll to the junction to Mentakab which is 58 minutes. Now i also broke the record, but is slow one, from Gombak Toll to Mentakan now it needs more than 1 and helf hours.I realise that there is so many good views along the highway, and the kakak in the toll plaza is very beautiful.I can even enjoy every songs that i have burnt and borrowed.Espcially the CD of the Spirits of Love,but the CD has been broken cause i keep on repeating the song of No,9 .Sad and sorry to Mr.Low Wai kong.
Slow can bring us benefits.Sometime , i told myself that i have to be fast, to catch all i want! But, think back, will me go too fast?Should i stop and think is it all the things that i really wanted.?Maybe the things that i wanted was lefting behine because i m go too fast.I sat down on the road,think, what i have left behine…Oh ya is you!The important ones.Maybe that is not the time for us to be together now,but i always do something for us, or maybe for myself.You are the unforgetable one.
During the stopping time, i can enjoy the fresh air,listen some classic melody or write whatever i want.Or even do some introspects,oh ya i didn’y clean my room for a long time, then now my room just like 5 stars hotel.
The rushing boy liked BMW no matter 3 or 5 series,and for him,7 series is like his father,too old.
And now, the rushing boy still liked BMW, but it is the other meaning,Business, Money and ,Women.He already forgot who taught him,and quite logically talks, you need to have business first, then you will have Money$$,after you got money then definitely you will got women.Quite attractive huh..
Now the boy has some idea about the BMW,he try to redefined the term again.Business,business is just a tool or mean to get money,and you need how to know to enjoy the process of doing business.Money,for the boy,is just a tool to get some neccessaries or to bring hapiness to others.He used to said,money is all the roots of evil,but if you don’t have money, you are the real evil!Now money is still important to him,but not as important as last time, he understand that money cannot buy the things that he wants,like the person who just passed away and money cannot awake his life who had brought so many good memories when the boy was a kid.Em… women, i don’t think the boy is qualified to talk about this,because he is a bastard.
The sun is rising,is it indicating the boy is rising also?Ah… there are the mountains who hiding behine of the fogs,like a shyly girl.The people are rushing on the road but are they understand what is the meaning of life, or they just work like a ant and don’t know what life is?Maybe you cannot tell something to a person was passed away,but if you have something want to tell her, be quicked,life seldom give you a second chance.Don’t hesitate again ,and the price is high.


October 4th, 2007 at 10:27 am

A fly’s story

A fly who adopted by a bee family call Bee Alberto’s family since he was born,it is the richest family in the town.And the fly has it name call Berkely Alberto, and it is the youngest in the family.Berkely always being bullied by his elder brothers.But anyway,he got the most love from old Alberto because he is smart and hardworking,and manage to hand over his business to the adopted son.Inside Berkely’s heart,he always thought that he is a bee and never thought that he is a fly.

After pick and choose the most nice nectar as usual for trading, he is rushing back to home to take care of his ill father.But seen like this time was different,old Alberto was gather the whole family member beside his bed,and ask the lawyer read the will after arrival of Berkely.
According to the will,Berkely will get almost 90% of his father’s properties,including the nectar business.After a while,old Alberto has beck to the heaven.He was so sad,he can never forget how good that old Alberto treat him as his own son.Teach him how to run business,life philosophy,ethical philosophy and so on….

After the funeral of old Alberto,the whole member go back to their mansion.He can see all the family is boycotting him,they don’t want to sit together with him.The eldest brother behalf the whole family to express their unsatisfaction over the will and accused that is unfair and unjust,he must be manipulated the will,they don’t believe that their father will hand over the properties to an outsider.They ask him to leave and sign an agreement that promised to give back the properties to Bee Alberto’s family.The heartbroken orphan just follow it,cause he think that is meaningless to keep staying in the family since no one love him anymore.

He lefts the family with tears and just a luggage ,in front of him, is full of uncertainty.He start roams around the world with his little saving.That is a really good journey for him, he went to Australia which the country he prefer most,stay into Melbourne,Syeney,Adelaide and Geelong for a while.And start go to Malaysia,oh ya, according to traval agency,this country is multi-racial country,has many diffrent culture,after arrival to Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia capital, he can wait to see the city.Wah,Twins Tower,Kl Tower,Genting.

And he stay in a hotel call All Bugs Hotel it’s a hotel that specialize in serving all bugs.After take a warm-water bath,he starts standing at the balcony and enjoying the wind.Suddenly he saw that is a dandelion at a field beside of the hotel.He start fly to the dandelion and start to talk to the dandelion.

After self-introduction,they found out that they are sharing some common value like liberty, democracy and so on.The dandelion is call Sophie,from southern part of Malaysia,staying here for studying.Berkely was really happy because whatever he knows,she knows,ha.They went out for movie,lunch,aquarium and bookstore.

Soon,Berkely has fall in love to Sophie,all the little things between he and she he couldn’t forget.He hopes that the current moment and feeling could everlasting.He use the high-technology to record while they are going out,just want to keep the good memories forever.
But soon,he know that Sophie need to futher her study in foreign country,which Berkely could not affort.Berkely use to want to express his feeling toward her,but after a deliberation,he intend not to tell her because he knows that is no point to express his feeling to a person who will leave soon and cannot be together.Maybe such a beautiful flower does belongs to a better place,deserve better than what she has now,and Berkely is just a fly, a dirty-bug without anything.

Berkely hope the story will have no ending.The meet for both of them is exclamation,the current seperation is a comma ,and he hope that is no full stop.
Sophie was flutter with the wind toward a brighter future,for her.With a complicated emotion.Berkely standing on the ground,waving to Sophie,with smile.
After Sophie left,Berkely go back to his hometown and starts run a small business with his friend.He will always think about her and wish God will blessing her.
This is a story creature by Meng Loong.

And it is a story which the idea has just twinkle in his mind.And the name Alberto,Berkely and Sophie was taken from a book call The Sophie’s World.

October 30th, 2007 at 5:37 am

He

He came out form his mansion. His body guard opened the umbrella automatically and don’t hope his boss will get wet as the sky was drizzling. He wears a sunglass and a robe. He enters his BMW 7 series slowly. The body guard closed the door as his boss entered into the car and sit at the front seat. The boss waves his hand as a sign to ask the driver moves the car. Today was unusual day. His tears was came out a long the way. The driver saw it from the rear mirror, but he was pretended as he didn’t saw it. After that, his boss look at outside quietly, but some tears were still came out from the sorrowful eyes. The car was turn slowly into grave. The BMW 7 series was stopped at the side of a tomb. The body guard rushed to the rear car door and opened it for his boss. He opened the umbrella for his boss. The driver was sitting in the car. They walking slowly close to the tomb, he mumbled to himself and holding a bind of lily, his wife favorite. He took out a cigarette and lights it. He took a deep sucks. He used to live in a poor area, without any dime in his pocket. He worked as coolie, waiter, driver and such and such. But he didn’t give up as he was studying in university. He slept for 4 hours in his university life and squeeze as more as possible time to study and revision. A girl was comes into his life. His classmate. They shared their meal no matter breakfast, lunch and dinner together just because they want to save more money. They live in a small room. And they work and study hard. They are very happy although they were poor. After graduate, he wanted to starts his business with their tiny saving. He pledged to himself, he wants to marry her when he got his first million. The front seeable graduate could predict the economic raising according to the Open-Door Policy which the government has invited foreign direct investment to invest in their country. He was aiming into property industry. He gathered some money from his family and the most important is the girl took all of her saving to support him. “I trust you baby, do what you want to do”, he could never forget what she has told her. After 2 years, the development has been competed, and the houses were sold out, the young graduate has got his first million. And now he becomes one of the most powerful developers in the country. As he promised, he wants to marry her. He chooses the 32K diamond ring for her, and buys a new suit of penthouse in the centre of the city. A new set of furniture imported directly from Italy. There were gathered around by both side relatives and friends. They holding a wineglass and walk and talk around, the music was just nice, and everyone was expecting to see the bride. After 1 hour, the bride was coming down from the upper floor, she attracted all people and look at her, he was smiling, he smile, because she is beautiful, he smile, because she is so charming… He holds her hand and walk into the crowded, and dance with his wife, yes his wife. They dance according the nice melody he looks into her eyes; he thinks he is the luckiest man in the world. Everything seen so nice and smooth… the bride was faint, everyone was shocked, “Go, go and get the car!”, his driver do it immediately . After an hour operation, the doctor says that he already try his best, but the undetected virus was already destroy her body, that is rarely seen virus which can make a person die and anytime. He couldn’t accept that his wife was died! They still dancing hour before, now the doctor has declare his wife was gone. She didn’t left any words He put the lily at in front of the tomb. He report to her what he has done last year, and apology because he almost didn’t see her for 2 months. He wipes down his tears. After he finished the second cigarette, he was gone, gone to his empty penthouse. They birds alongside like laughing him that no matter how rich you are, but you still along. He envy the birds, they could have love with their love one. The empty penthouse always reminding him that he has lost the girl he loves most. He has no plans to find another one, at lease now. He jus could not forget how good she was. He smokes again, look at the city and thinking how nice if she was here. He never lives in the penthouse, because he supposes to live with her. Then he go back to the mansion which he lives alone.
January 8th, 2008 at 7:39 am

OH Yeah!

欢迎大家收听 “龙的声音” 这个单元.很快的来到了午夜时分, 在大部分人以进入梦乡的时候, 有我的声音陪伴着你 .首先, 我要对去年发生水灾的灾民表示佩服, 因为他们勇敢的站了起来. 马来西亚的未来就在你们身上啦!

刚刚我收到了一个传真, 是一个男孩要与我们分享他的点点滴滴. 他说他对一个女孩特别的关心, 不要问他为什么, 因为就是无时无刻都会想着她, 他说她的出现是感叹号! 而希望他们之间只有逗号, 而没有句号. 虽然说他们是活在数码时代, 但他们之间没有通电话, 也没有传短讯, 不是为什么, 就是他没有他的号码. 他总是想尽办法在他与她之间塔起一座桥梁, 他想过训练一只白鸽, 充担他的传信使者, 来一个 “飞鸽传情书” , 不错麻. 哈哈. 又或者是发射一个人造卫星, 看看她到底正在做些什么, 可是他不够钱. 不过,他说不要紧, 他以经想到了一个辦法, 那就是每一晚在她睡之前写一些诗或他的感受, 通过电邮给她.

其实他出此下策是有原因的, 那就是她的朋友对她很好,不肯透露她的号码, 无论这男孩出什么条件. 艾比, 爱立寺,烂泥好一群 “英迪好女”. 死也不肯透漏. 应该捉你们去做间谍.

他还说他不知道为什么的, 他总是感觉到甜甜的.望着他自己的猪朋狗友, 他甜甜的.喝柠蒙水也是甜的. 就连他的车也感觉的到他甜甜的.他就是喜欢甜甜. 最后,他希望她永远都那么甜. 晚安. 甜梦.
不错,不错, 这男孩写的不错,感觉周围都有了蚂蚁. 我想她应该知道跟明白的. 看看DJ室外的车辆川流不息,想必有许多是出来约会的吧.应这男孩的要求,我先在就播周杰伦的新歌给她 “甜甜的”希望那女孩会喜欢. “甜甜的”:


我輕輕的嘗一口　你說的愛我　還在回味你給過的溫柔 我輕輕的嘗一口　這香濃的誘惑　我喜歡的樣子你都有 你愛過頭竟然答應我　要給我蜂蜜口味的生活 加一顆奶球我攪拌害羞　將甜度調高後再牽手 你的愛太多想隨身帶走　想你的時候就吃上一口 我溫熱著被呵護的感受　卻又擔心降溫了要求 ■我嘗著你話裏面的奶油溜啊溜　聽過的每句話都很可口呦啊呦 　那些多餘的畫面全被跳過　你的眼中只有我 ◆我輕輕的嘗一口　你說的愛我　還在回味你給過的溫柔 　我輕輕的嘗一口　這香濃的誘惑　我喜歡的樣子你都有 ★我輕輕的嘗一口　你說的愛我　捨不得吃會微笑的糖果 　我輕輕的嘗一口　份量雖然不多　卻將你的愛完全吸收 我微笑著讓香味停留　緣份走到這也賴著不走 像夾心餅乾中間有甜頭　繼續下去不需要理由 REPEAT■◆★ 我輕輕的嘗一口　你說的愛我　還在回味你給過的溫柔 我輕輕的嘗一口　味道香濃的說　我喜歡的樣子你都有



January 12th, 2008 at 8:31 am

一觉睡醒, 他妈的心情很不好,因为以经十二点半了, 牙都没刷,就跑到客厅,打开电视看 “意难忘”, 妹妹泡了杯美禄, 也和我一起看意难忘了.

当我们看的津津有味时, 妈妈突然之间带了一位安娣来家里,说看风水,我心想要看风水不会到Kuantan海边看吗? 那边不止有风有水,而且还有太阳美女, 哦! 还有KFC 跟 Mcdonald’s,还可以顺便看Abby跟 Rannie,来我家看? 没法,妈妈喜欢到.

穿着四角裤的我,避免形象受到破坏, 马上冲到厕所冲凉. 大唱曹格的Superwomen(超级女人),心里还是很纳闷. 冲完凉后,跑到房间,梳头, 准备与我表弟午餐, 当我走到客厅时,妈妈就叫我过来, 坐在那个安娣隔壁听她说点东西. “又关我事?”我心想.

我坐下后,她对我说, 我帮你换了一个新名, 我的眼睛瞪的比太阳还要大! 她帮我改了一个与我久名完全无关的名! 叫黄涁玜! Walao! 我看着妈妈! 她还说了一大堆有的没的,我心想,完了完了, 一下子得了新的身份, 要我如何面对认识了十多年的朋友!

Wei!安娣 不要忘了对财神爷说我换了新名,哦, 还有月老, 等下我没又女朋友啊! 她说什么大富大贵, 哇! 安娣,真的是酱好? 不用做咯!既来之,则安之,我就用着新的身份过年吧!
就这样,我就无端端变了另一个人. 过年!

Oh yeah, maybe you are wrong, saying that I don’t know how to love a person, you say that I just taking love as a game and I never be serious before! You are wrong, does any school teach what love is or how to love a person? But am I really look like that? I don’t think so, because you don’t understand me very well, lady!

Study in a strange place isn’t easy for everyone, everything you need to handle by yourself, no need to cry because that is part of our life, and take it as a lesson in your life which can help you grow, wipe your tears lady, fight like a soldier.

Oh yeah, my young lady, where you want to study? You haven’t tell me yet, you are the one who I worry most, what I want you to understand what should a person do in his or her life, don’t waste your time like this everyday, do some useful thing , at least MaMa will be happy, now Chinese New Year was passed, so what is your plan?

You know, the result of the study isn’t important, but the most important is what have you learn in study, lady, something can come from nothing, and the nothing for every human is call effort, without effort, human are unable to travel by plane just like what we did in CNY, lady, without effort human are just barbarian and live for nothing everyday.

Lady, what I want you to understand is, you are independent since the doctor cut the umbilical cord from you and MaMa, got that? Don’t expect you can live with MaMa everyday, MaMa will leave you eventually, got that? Lady, show me what you got! I will help you whenever you need, don’t worry I will always stand by you. You are the one who I worry most, do your best so that you will no regret in your life and never waste the chance that MaMa has given to you as a human.

You, my cutest cousin, nothing to worry about ok, trust me everything will be ok as long as you want to solve it, and I believe that everything will be settle but just need sometime, ok.! I know you have many complaints and pressure, I understand you, sometime we also need to learn how to relax don put everything upon yourself, sometime something happened wasn’t your fault, just because the big environment ok? To be or not to be, since we cannot choose whether you want to come to the world, but since we came here without much choice, then why don we just act a good movie for everyone, the curtain will close in our life finally, but before that, did we have a good show for the viewer. Just do it rightly what you think is right, no one can understand you then yourself, just tell how is your feel to your parent, I believe that they will understand you.
Hey you, don try to runaway ,my handsome cousin, now is your turn, study hard ok, you got such a nice opportunity that not everyone could get in their life, appreciate it, I believe you can because I borrowed you my favorite book “The Sophie’s World” to AUSTRALIA ok, no one can get the book from me so easily ok, cause the book mean to me.
OK then , take care.



February 15th, 2008 at 11:10 pm

一生

哇哇落地, 什么都不会,就是会喝奶.

稍微大点,才出世不久,就开始学走路.

会了走路,跌跌撞撞,开始长牙齿,娃娃学讲话.

伊伊呀呀,地第,士土,分不清,马凉当冯京,开始上学去.

学校里面,被鞭当饭吃,被骂心才爽.

六年小学,迷迷糊糊的,不知道怎样的,开始上中学.

中学时候,老师讲他的,我们玩我的.

上课睡觉,下课马上醒,放学冲第一.

在Bilik Disiplin 多过在课室.

别人上课,我们在赌博,我们踢足球.

有些朋友更绝,带枕头来上课!

五年中学,没学会什么,就是会顶嘴.

父母绝望,赶快要我读学院, 我竟然也读了.

最大的爱好就是睡觉跟打机, hai,你以为我朋友meh,

喜欢 sue别人.

读完书,要做工了,为了生活, 点点酱多,都要做啦,

爸爸是李嘉诚就另当别论啦.

每天做上做下, 赶来赶去, 为了什么?

做个活着的鬼,到不如做个活着得人啦, 很难啦!

哇,生活才安顶下来,又酱要结婚咯!

有了孩子,哇!更加做到脸青青, 腰骨断都要做,

手停口停阿!

孩子长大了,以为轻松点, 谁知道,一个要跑车,一个要去澳洲,

一个又欠阿窿,真的命都没有.

一个个结婚了,没眼看,管他的, 坐在家里一面等退休金,一面打麻将啦,

就这样就去世了. 死在麻将抬,哈哈哈.

原来地狱也与我们没有两样啦,就是落后点罢了.

牛先生与马先生说要投胎了,哇,又repeat 一次啊? 不要玩拉…

人的一生 = “做” 这个字啊!

February 23rd, 2008 at 8:08 am

贪婪

一头受了伤的牛慢慢的走过来,它似乎没有注意到两边的山上站着一群狡猾的狼,狼群们个个都流着口水,似乎对眼前的猎物很满意.狼群们邪恶的笑了起来.

牛一步步的前进,眼前的路就象张开口的老虎,它一步步的掉进一个被设计好的陷阱.
其中一只狼对着天咐叫,仿佛感谢着上帝赐给它们这么丰富的午餐.在它的一声号召之下,所有的狼都冲下了山.顿时之间,沙尘滚滚,它们最喜欢对毫无还手之力的猎物动手,何况它还受了伤.
那只等待被宰的牛,惊慌的叫了起来,似乎不知道发生了什么事.或许, 那头可怜的牛应该明白, 在弱肉强食的世界里, 它注定是要死,因为它是吃草而不是肉. 它注定是要死,是因为它以经被设计好了,它只是一个游戏者,而不是游戏设计者.

它要回头走, 但是有一群狼阻挡了它的去路,正是这群狼,刚刚在来之前的另一个山头攻击它,原来它们刚才放过它,不是同情它,也不是可怜它,就是为了让它可以到这里. 而是游戏的一部份
狼群们向那头牛咬去,狠狠的咬,似乎没有因为它受了伤而放过它,牛痛的大叫,而其中一只狼向它的伤口咬去,它痛的撕心裂肺,它对狼群们吟叫,可是狼群们怎么会因为你的求饶而放过你呢? 这是它们设计的游戏, 而游戏的最后就是你的肉.

它们不管你的死活,它们要的是你的肉来填饱它们那永无止竟的胃口,它们的胃口大的令人害怕. 你只是它们的一步份. 在牛死之前,它看见远出有一只狼,静静的看着它,那只狼似乎是这一切的主宰者,它在某种程度上扮演着上帝.

这时只见几头狼把最美味的腿部拿给了那为主宰者. 它永远的只会躲在后面指挥一切而不曾跑到台前来表演. 严守着家族的承诺,永不出头方可的天下.为了迷惑手下,赌,喝,嫖,抽, 它都用上, 就是为了控制它们的意志力,这样,它们才会乖乖的帮它做工.嗜血成性的它,野心大的怕人,它要征服全世界,一切都在它脚下.贪婪和权力的欲望不曾在它心中消灭过.正是贪婪和权力的欲望促使它不短的前进,前进.

在他的眼里没有战争与和平，没有口号和宣言，也没有死亡或荣誉，他们忽略了这些迷惑世人眼睛的东西。他们的眼中只有垫脚石.就想鲨鱼一样,永远只有往有血的地方前进. 无情的把猎物撕开, 吃完,在找另一个牺牲品 之到征服世界为止.

February 27th, 2008 at 8:39 am

Human

There is someway in the corner of the universe is living with a species which is called HUMAN. They are created by the GOD, they obey him. They were lived in peacefully in 500000 years ago, their happy; the man went to hunt, built the shelter and protects the clan from the animal attack. The women are waiting at home for their husband’s prey, they clean their house, and decorate their place. The children were chasing around with fun, they went to river, the climbed mountain, and they even followed their father to hunting.

And then this group of species increase significant in the population, the resources was not enough for them, therefore they migrant to other places. They walked to every corner in the God’s place. But all of the still obey Him. They say their praying to Him no matter where they are. They build their own country, they started to claimed their won territory which could not offended by “foreigner”. They created they legal system in their holy land, they claim sovereign rights in their own land. They starting to differentiate from their cousins, and never be a family again.

They starting differentiate themselves in color, who is high class then who, who should be treated like a slave. Who do not deserve to enjoy their life in the God’s land. Who is my kind, who is not my kind. In order to get the resources from the other country, they started offended their neighbor, which a large group of war machine which is called “soldier”, they march, they sing, they are full of motivation, there is only one thing in their mind, victory. They rationalize the barbarian act; to say is for saving the suffering people from their neighbor.

They killed for each other, they murdered, and they assassinated the leader who opposes them. They release the animal instinct during the war; they fight because the instinct, they fight, because they want to conquer other to fulfill their instinct.

Evils is watching aside quietly, laughing, they feel funny enough because the self-claim “high intelligent” and “civilize” people are doing the most barbarian thing. The evils embody in greedy and feeling of the power in those “high-intelligent” species’ heart. They control their mind to achieve their wants. Their wants is simple; to see people unrest, to see people die, and to see the same kind killing the same kind. They feel ridiculous, because they can be controlled easily.

To see a leader hold the position, the highest leader in the land, he give comment, everybody is rounding him to get something like a bagger, the leader feel happy. But he never see somebody is actually behind him, to overthrow his regime, they want to limited position too, they use any tricks that can bring him down and then get the position, funny enough, they also never see there are somebody behind them once they got the position. The same thing will keep repeating until the end of the time.

The species already forget they are actually from the same family, greedy and power is covering their eyes, they could not see the fact clearly, they are too busying to create history, and they will never know the created things could not to be together with them forever. They will never learn from history, and they will punish by what they had done one day. And they are called HUMAN.

March 7th, 2008 at 9:39 am

妳

也许我终于接受了这个事实.

妳我之间只有这样短短的缘分.

也更明白了我们不可能在一起的事实.

曾经幻想我们能在一起,那该有多好!

妳吸引我的地方不是妳的样子,

而是妳的才华.

望着妳对中华文化的解说,我才知到妳知识渊博.

而我却傻傻的向外国朋友们解释六四事件.

曾经不敢去那些和妳约会过的地方,

怕的是会想起妳.

曾经想要去和妳约会过的地方,

就是为了寻找那些美好的回忆.

总是希望能在一次的坐在妳身边, 让妳猜游戏.

有时,我还会感觉到妳的笑声环绕在我耳边,

而我也不知不觉的笑了起来.

故意在电话里不出声,要的就是妳关心我.

很努力的读书,为的就是不让妳厉害过我,

可是,正是因为如此,妳才吸引我,

在任何佳节的时侯,都不会忘了传短讯给妳,

要和妳一起分享我的快乐吧?哈!

知道妳要离开了,心里真的很难过,很难过,

很慌张.

真后悔当初没答应我表姐说要去澳洲读书.

是上天执意要我们分各两地吗?也许吧…

用了很长的时间才走出妳的阴影,

重新找回自己.

今天我终于有勇气面对这事实了.

负担一下都全没了.轻松很多了…哈!

也许我在妳生命里,只是一个过客,

但,妳却意外的成了我一时的女主角,在我生命中演出,

有些话没说出口,就让它永远的放在心里吧.

会有续集吗?

希望妳永远都好. 隆.



March 13th, 2008 at 11:08 am

Universal and human

Human are living in the earth, the earth is orbiting the sun, and the sun is just part of the Galaxy, and many Galaxies consist universal.

So, human are actually very tiny just like a dust, if we compare to the age of universal. But the tiny human are actually able to give meaning to everything that is existing, or even not existing!
Because of human, the sun got a name, called SUN, the moon got a name, called Moon. If without human, then the sun and mood is just a death thing which is moving meaningless.

Because of human, they have started to deal with something that is abstract, such as philosophy, art or even law because such things will never appear without human. What is right what is wrong, I say that will have not a precise answer, because we could judge a thing is good in certain situation but we also can judge a thing is wrong in certain situation. For example, kill. If I kill you now,I will found guilty,and I might properly will spent rest of my life in jail or maybe executed. But look at that, an execution is right for killing by the law, or in the other world, a person also can be killed legally. War, another example, which two parties, could kill each other legally.
According to the theory of Big Bang which is stating that how actually our universal came from, then I believe, our universal will die eventually. Could anything just simply come from nothing? I come from my mama, my mama came from my grandmamma. They fight because they were argue before, why they argue, because A owe B money, why … we can keep on asking until we got the final answer. So I believe that our universal is not always exist, it must be comes from something, don’t ask me where, that is beyond of my knowledge. Maybe is God la

Human are so tiny yet so big! We are so small if we compare to the universal. But we are so big if we compare to the universal. Why? The baggiest thing is not the universal, elephant or whales, but is our brain. Why? Ask yourself, is the elephant or whales developed something like moral value or are they discovered 1+1=2? Are they able to develop something such as computer or language? No, even the thing as big as universal also cannot! But human with the tiny brain, they can! Yes, we do it!

If let’s say the universal is finite, then human’s brain must be infinite. If let’s say the universal has limitation, then our brain should have not limitation. We could think far far beyond then the universal. Fro example, human are able to develop Law, no matter is criminal or civil law, common law or statute law or written or unwritten law. It is not easy to develop such things which is involved many brain work. If you were the judge, what will you do if you encounter a case which is never happened before or there is no precedence case could refer? Then is the time for the judge to show her/his ability. A judgment making need to consider many effect, especially original precedent, because the similar case after this will judge based on the case. But one thing here which is really confused me. The constitution is the supreme law within the land, it is also the source of law, but who gave such a power to the constitution? Why shall we obey? If it is the supreme law, then who and what is the constitution writer? Are they actually higher then the constitution because they created it! There is a lot of opinion about law, if really need to express here, it could be a lot. But anyway, I m very respect the Constitution since it protect our rights of liberty and many many things. And, I m always a good citizen.

Human’s brain also advance in philosophy! What is philosophy, I could not simply provide a definition. But in my opinion, it is a subject between God and Human. Studying philosophy’s requirement is not high, as long as you starting to think where the hell you are actually come from. If today I m not call Meng Loong, then who will I be? See that? I believe that everyone is philosopher because no one will not asking these question to themselves. Keep on asking why why why rather then keep on copying copying in the class.

Universal could be very big yet small, for human, is the same, so big yet so small. It is depend on you and how you see yourself. We will become history, but at least we have contribute to the world and our self rather then we just simply come to the world and eat sleep shit and waiting to die. I believe that man come from 2 reasons, to find out where are we come from and seek the truth. Some says human born to generate next generation, well, undeniable too…hahaha

My young lady I hope you will understand why I object strongly that you have a love now. I m not that unreasonable and I know everyone need love, even me too But before that, I hope you can study first, don’t take your future as gambling.May God bless you and me.



March 19th, 2008 at 10:49 am

勾魂术

哇,今天终于有空写我的部落各了,

连续一个星期不停的读书读书,

死读书,读死书,最后还不是等于读书, 死.

今天我们来谈一谈 ‘勾魂术’.

它是一种看不见又摸不到的东西,

但它确确实实的存在我们的身边,

或许,你又会想到一些关于鬼鬼怪怪的东西,

但,我想,它应该比鬼鬼怪怪的东西还要严重吧.

一但它惹上了你,你就注定要混昏荤浑的过一生.

不信? 我就是一个好例子.

基本上只是我的魂刚好从她那边回来冲凉,

我才可以写这文章.

那个该死的魂已经被她勾去很久了,

每天只想着她, 搞到我魂不守舍,

变成半仙半人,成天灵魂出窍,

被她那难以用华语或其他语言来形容的眼神吸引,

最后被灵魂被勾走.

被她那比密糖还要甜的声音吸引,

最后被灵魂被勾走.

每天走上走下, 心里想着的是她,

每天躺上躺下, 心里想着的是她

先在更死, final 要到了, 心里想着的是她

班长刚才问我,你在想着什么,我说我想着的是她,

班长饭都喷. 没法,魂都以被勾走了,还能怎样?

整个活死人酱,每天行尸走肉, 人不象人, 鬼不象鬼.

想叫妈妈帮我招魂,可是妈妈说我该死!walao!

想要问她那里学的‘勾魂术’以后学会了,

换我勾勾看她的魂看看.哈哈!

不过说真的,魂被妳勾,滋味还满美妙的,

至少魂是被妳勾的.

等等,我的魂又要出去了,等等, 让我先打完.

最后,奉劝各为提防提防,免的被这种勾魂术把你的魂勾走,

最后搞到象我这样.

喂,暂时把我的魂还给我好吗? Final 过后再勾回, 好吗?

话还没说完,魂又游到她那边去了.


April 1st, 2008 at 9:27 am

Me

Waking at the edge on the cliff,

So happy yet so sad,

Thinking on the edge of the sword,

So scared yet so blurred.

Never mind everything,

I turn back and jump into the sea,

So cold yet so fresh,

I let the wind cut through my face and my heart,

I let the sun burn my eyes and lips,

I put all the best and bad memories at the cliff,

Runaway without any troubles and worried,

No time to say good bye to them,

I already embrace to a new life,

To start the new life.

I found a mirror at the bottom of the sea,

It shown many things to me,

Teach me what life is,

Sleeping at the bottom of the sea,

Like sleeping at the bottom of my heart,

So peace and rest,

A girl fish had intrude to the sea,

It left nothing but a valuable jewelry to me,

I try to catch the fish,

But it gone so fast, like a rocket.

At the deep down of the sea,

No one pulling me up,

I need to climb up by myself.

I heal the wound by my own,

With tears and sweats,

Feel like a fool and clown,

Manipulate by others,

Losing my soul and mind.

Ive Jen ask me to write something

About my life and experience

On my blog, he says my blogs is fucking boring

But brother, we cannot even sure what is real,

Or was it just a dream about our life.

Struggle on the way of life,

Don’t know where is the direction,


April 17th, 2008 at 12:37 am

再见

当你在最病重的时候,

我说过,花几多钱,我都要把你医好.

我不曾放弃过你,

因为你陪我度过了许多欢乐时光,

你也见证了我许多东西.

那天,你悄悄的离开了我,

你没有回应我,无论我多努力的叫你.

这一次,你最绝,真的走了.

眼泪忍不住的从眼眶流了下来.

你走的很安静,没有挣扎.

你就是我,我就是你,

你中有我,我中有你,

你我只间,不分你我.

我总是不知不觉的与你分享我的

喜怒哀乐,

你也很了解我与朋友之间的对话,

你也成了我记录回忆的工具,

如今,你也成了我的回忆.

我不是我,你不是你,

当我要找回记忆时,

先要找你.

是你把握生命中最精彩的

部分,纪录起来.

现在,你走了,

把我的美丽回忆也一起带走,

是不是意味着那些回忆也须告一段落呢?

就如你一样,

那些日子仿佛就象昨天一般,

那么清晰,好听.

曾经我利用你当成话题,

与她聊天,

曾经我利用你当成工具,

与她聊天

曾经, 曾经,有太多说不完的曾经,

现在,你也变了曾经.

一路好走,

祝你安息,
My Nokia 6250
2005-2008


May 21st, 2008 at 6:48 pm

无言

他脸上划过丝丝的无奈,

我感觉到他心在痛.

人在,心不在.

他已尽了力去逗她开心,

但她却不知道,是装的吗?

有时侯,人就是这样,

喜欢她的时候,什么都会去做,

要的就是让她开心.

他,多么无助的眼神,

他大概也知道了结果,

当我们帮他做案情分析时,

就象律师一样的忠告他.

付出了,却得到一场空,

好象准备好要去大海游泳,

最后却被淹死. 妈的.

心中的激动没反应在他脸上,

大慨在盘算着什么吧.

或许是好事一樁,

经历了,人才会成长,

但你要感谢她,

因为她让你更踏实,

因为她让你更努力,

因为她让你更坚强.

要让她知道,不选你,

是她,不是你的损失,

毕竟她不是你的全部.

有时,男子不是笨,

只不过是不想连做朋友都没机会,

可是,她这样做,我想没必要,

至少你们还会见面.

没必要去利用他,

滥用别人对你的爱.妈的妈的!

今天你这样对他,

好! 我希望明天别人也一样对你.

俗语说的好,

善有善报,恶由恶报,

不是不报,是因未到.

自古英雄难过美人关,

不过不要紧,

因为你不是英雄,

更重要的是,她不是美人,

所以,这关不难过. 信我!

加油!
涁玜上.

May 25th, 2008 at 10:05 pm

品歌记

给未来的自己.

站在狂风的天台一望无际 这一座孤独的城市 在天空与高楼交接的尽头 谁追寻空旷的自由 阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我 隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠 川流不息的人游荡在街头 谁能听见谁的寂寞 找一个人惺惺相惜　找一颗心心心相印 在这个宇宙　我是独一无二　没人能取代 不管怎样　怎样都会受伤 伤了又怎样　 至少我很坚强　我很坦荡 夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海 多少人多少种无奈 在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害 一觉醒来还有期待 我不放弃爱的勇气　我不怀疑会有真心 我要握住　一个最美的梦　给未来的自己 一天一天　一天推翻一天　坚持的信仰 我会记住自己今天的模样 有一个人惺惺相惜　有一颗心心心相印 抛开过去　我想认真去追寻 未来的自己 不管怎样　怎样都会受伤 伤了又怎样　 至少我很坚强　我很坦荡 未来的你　会懂我的疯狂

除了周杰伦的,没有一首歌会让我重复又重复的听,
但在一个美丽的交际之下,我听见了这首歌.
我听歌有一个习惯,
就是不管曲有多好听,我都要从歌词欣赏起,
好象看人一样,先从心看起.
品歌好比品茶,慢慢的,细细的,一点一点的听,
歌,曲, 词,到歌手,慢慢,听,欣赏.
如果说曲是歌的身体的话,
那么词就是歌的心脏,
一首歌有了身体和心脏不够,
还要有灵魂,当然是梁静茹的声音,
她完美了这首歌.
每天早上醒来,要听一下,
睡前也会听一下,惯了!
“在这个宇宙我是独一无二, 是没人能取代”
说的是, 妳是唯一,难以代替.
“不管怎样, 怎样都会受伤, 伤了又怎样”
哇? 她是说就算受了情伤,又如何,是吗?
“我不放弃 爱的勇气 我不怀疑 会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦 给未来的自己”
小弟非常喜爱这一段,
看起来,她非常相信有真爱的存在,
我还是第一次知道,
活着,编梦,是为了未来,而不是当下,
是让未来的我,回头看看,我是个怎样的我,
所以要握住一个最美的梦.
孤独的人来到孤独的城市,在孤独的夜里,会显的更孤独.
人潮人来人往,但此刻,我的心却是平静的.
宇宙环绕着我,我是宇宙的中心,
那么,我肯定环绕着妳.因为你是我的中心.
不用怀疑.
如果说想念是会呼吸的痛,
那我想,我已经痛了千遍万遍,
或许,我已经不是我,因为可能已经被痛死了.
慢慢的细嚼这一首歌,
就如我默默的欣赏妳一样.永远.





June 2nd, 2008 at 11:18 pm

三姑六婆

在这个世界上, 有一群人,
没事干,整天去理别人的事,
我们统统把他称为
“三姑六婆” 管他男的女的.

基本上它们属于
吃饱买包没事干的那一类,
不然它们哪来这么多时间理别人的事.
它们专门那别人的事来谈,
并以此为乐.
好象全世界的事
都跟它们左边的鼻子洞有关,
比八哥还八, 吵过一只猪.

它们这种为恐天下不乱的心太,
实在让人佩服.
毕竟没有了是非,就好象没了灵魂,
整天无所事事,不知要做什么.
只要说一说是非,就精神饱满,
好过去喝coffee.

这一群人最容易在巴刹看见,
它们个个都是耶苏,
个个都是他们的兄弟姐妹.
买完菜 没事干 说是非
基本上我没看到它们的好,
就连我家隔壁狗排出来的屎,
也比他们的嘴香.
等等! 拿狗屎跟它们比,不是侮辱那狗屎吗?

口或嘴巴有两种功能,
那就是 吃与说.
它们把这两种功能发挥的淋漓尽致.

吃饱后就等大便,
国家生产力下跌 它们功不可抹.
这一群人用屁股呼吸 嘴巴放屁 自然满口屁话
与屁为舞 无屁不欢.
我刚喝了番薯糖shui 放出来的屁一定很香它们一定很喜欢

我想劝一劝它们 为咱们的社会做点贡献,
可是它们会吗?
连狗粪都可以拿来当肥料,
它们呢?

让我想想…..
有了 叫它们去死 ….
不要说我黑心 我是经过深思熟滤思考后的答案
它们死了就会拿钱出来买馆材
推一推国家经济成长.多好!
哇, 要想它们的贡献真是很难,
不过我终于也想到了

喂…三姑六婆
早点死为社会贡献.


June 17th, 2008 at 1:07 am

夜

在夜深人静的时候

背着吉他，慢慢的爬上屋顶

看着脚下繁华的城市，忘我的自弹

让我对着那朵花唱首歌吧，似懂非懂

让我对着隔壁的女孩唱吧，隔帘看她

唱累了就喝口啤酒，躺在屋顶，看星星

慢慢的，突然从星星中看见了她

心忽然有些感触，不知所措

想知道她在那边过得好吗？

慢慢的爬起来，站在屋顶上，暗暗的自己说，我要去找她

不能让她从自己的指缝中溜走

星星与这座城市作证，我对自己许下的承若

为了自己喜欢的人，有什么事是做不到的

恨不得马上捉着经过的飞机，马上就走

尽管千万的反对，仍然一意孤行

哼着她最喜欢的歌，思念越强烈

再喝口啤酒

远处传来喇叭的声音，围绕着这城市

听得出，孤独在向世人喧嚣

孤独在对 手无寸铁 的人 毫无犹豫的下手

喇叭唱出了世人的心声，感觉

慢慢的让身体里的血液也跳起了舞来

与它翩翩共舞的同时，不忘来口啤酒

朋友,

去吧，没什么可以阻止你

去吧，没什么可以打击你

只有你自己可以打击你自己

只有你自己可以阻止你自己

去找回失去以久的自己，把灵魂赎回来

不再做没有灵魂的人

哼着哼着 自己带着微笑就睡着了

Hehe …..




June 26th, 2008 at 3:08 a

夜

在夜深人静的时候

背着吉他，慢慢的爬上屋顶

看着脚下繁华的城市，忘我的自弹

让我对着那朵花唱首歌吧，似懂非懂

让我对着隔壁的女孩唱吧，隔帘看她

唱累了就喝口啤酒，躺在屋顶，看星星

慢慢的，突然从星星中看见了她

心忽然有些感触，不知所措

想知道她在那边过得好吗？

慢慢的爬起来，站在屋顶上，暗暗的自己说，我要去找她

不能让她从自己的指缝中溜走

星星与这座城市作证，我对自己许下的承若

为了自己喜欢的人，有什么事是做不到的

恨不得马上捉着经过的飞机，马上就走

尽管千万的反对，仍然一意孤行

哼着她最喜欢的歌，思念越强烈

再喝口啤酒

远处传来喇叭的声音，围绕着这城市

听得出，孤独在向世人喧嚣

孤独在对 手无寸铁 的人 毫无犹豫的下手

喇叭唱出了世人的心声，感觉

慢慢的让身体里的血液也跳起了舞来

与它翩翩共舞的同时，不忘来口啤酒

朋友,

去吧，没什么可以阻止你

去吧，没什么可以打击你

只有你自己可以打击你自己

只有你自己可以阻止你自己

去找回失去以久的自己，把灵魂赎回来

不再做没有灵魂的人

哼着哼着 自己带着微笑就睡着了

Hehe …..




June 26th, 2008 at 3:08 a

About myself

First time I write about myself on my blog. I cannot give the explanation or definitionto Meng Loong because it is not objective if I giving it by myself.

Some said he is a funny boy with many funny ideas, some said it was hard to believe that he likes reading because he always play truant(ok there is nothingconnected between like reading and play truant). Same said he got complicated and unique view point toward something. Some said he never let others know the real Meng Loong, because he always avoids the question about himself from hisfriends. Some said only can believe 0.05% in what he said. Some said he always have the same face to his friends, family and relative.

But wait,are they really talking about me? Am I really that complicated? It was only the iceberg about the commends on me, which I cannot tell one by one. But once again, am I really look like that? It is irony that our eyes only can look at others but not ourselves, if our eyes canlook at ourselves, then I no need to ask others about who am I.

Indeed,reading is my hobby, I bet you that no one will going to believe that , maybemy face already showing it. They were surprised when they saw many books at myhouse, the first question will be ask normally is “ you really read all thesebook?” , man, if I have not read, then I bought them for what? Just is thedecoration of my house? Then the generalresponse will be “it is hard to believe!” Dude, the evident already in front of your eyes, why still hard tobelieve? The third things that normally will do are picked up a book then askme to briefly tell them what the book is about. Salesman? Sometime, I do feel like that. Or likes omeone say, Meng Loong, it is really hard to believe lo, you always ponting class,but you like to read, I ask why? She said because my face cannot convince her. Walao!As I can remember how surprised my teacher look at me when I was there liningup to the bus as we were visiting the Parliament, and it was 7.30am, normally Iwill not be school at this time, maybe will be there later. What?! Visiting parliamentof course was a big issue to me, I woke up very early just I afraid that I willmiss the trip! My English teacher also write a commend on my article says thatit was a complicated Idea, it was hard to understand, but good attempt, okmadam, I will try to simplified what am I thinking into general term to expressmyself.

Yes dude,you are right as what you said that I seldom disclose myself to others,sometimes, not even to my closest friend. Just don’t ask me why, becausesomething that is not for sharing, not even my family. I was surprise that youknew about me so less as you are my friend, really sorry dude, hehe. But once again,you are right, maybe Jia JIa was right, told me that it was not healthy to keeptoo many secretly. I will only letothers know what I am thinking purposely. No one will know what I am thinking unless I talk it out by myself. Sometimes, you have to guess the meaning behind of the conversation, just my style, and I always like to do it, but I m not hiphop kaki. Men, if you have not told me this, I think I would never realize this!It was hard to keep a secret, but I do not have a good listener, then I willrather put in my heart, as I got a big memory in my heart.

You only can believe in 0.05% on what he told. Wah! Another good classic statement aboutme. Yes sometime don’t believe in my even 0.05%, because it could be lesserthan this. Maybe this is the method, skill or tactic for me to avoid certainquestion which I do not wish to answer. Alwayschange the topic by using exaggerate words. This is also link to that I do notlike to disclose myself much. Sometimes,from 0.05%, I can even understand myself more and more. This is quite normallyfor me because I like to joke with friends, and there is no point to be serioussometime, because I will only be serious when I m reading newspaper and book,oh maybe driving. By using exaggerate words, in the others way, can enhance myability to describe something. It was also funny when I talking about a serious thing, then my friend will not answer me first, but they will ask, are youserious or kidding? What the…. If I say Im serious, then I can saw many doubtful eyes were actually looking at me…. (-_-II) really (-_-II)

These are the general view toward me, but in fact, I m just a ordinary collegestudent who slept at 12.45 am then wake up at 7am everyday( weekend is 9 am)then I will go to class, read newspaper with breakfast like Ah Pak ,then if gotassignment then do the assignment, if not, then read and nap. Evening normally will only go to the restaurant that will show The Spirits of Love, then futsal jogging or table tennis. At night normally will watched series with KamLoong and supper with “Useless Wood, the Great Nine “then shower and sleep. If thatis not normal enough, then I will listening song and read before I sleep.

From the statement above, I strongly and firmly believe that I m an ordinary man whoalso same like others, with 2 eyes, ears, one mouth a pair of hand and leg. Is thatanything different from you? After self-analyze,I still believe I am who I am, Meng Loong. But sometime he only got a bit naughty ,that is all.




July 1st, 2008 at 9:52 am

棋

星期六，中午一个人，无所事事，难得空闲

跑到张锦龙的房间，拿出他的象棋，

来一个铭隆 VS铭隆

我把我自己一分为二

一将，一帅， 隔着楚河汉界，势不两立，

顿时之间，两阵对立，隔河叫阵，摩拳察掌，誓必把对方打个落花水流。

一声令下，百声齐应，慢慢的向敌营前进。

烽火连篇，敌人的撕叫声，刀光剑影，沙尘滚滚

孔明在世， 运筹帷幄，尽在掌握之中。

头脑与头脑的较量

他方个个士气高昂，我方一时遭架不住，兵倒，车毁，

我方开始士气低落，敲鼓吹角，重振旗鼓，以守为攻，诱敌深入，

以攻代守，敌停我扰，时守时攻，两管齐下，左右开弓，

慢慢的连扳几城。

孤舟上有位姑娘， 轻轻的弹着琵琶，泪光泛泛，

欲问姑娘为何孤身在此， 只因丈夫为国效劳，

为她怜惜，生错年代，为国捐躯，责任难逃。

大手一挥，指向敌将，万箭齐发，

气势已尽，士象护主，时已为晚

“将军”

棋中悟出真理，

虽然 他打败了他，那个他 还是我自己，

只有自己 最了解自己

把敌人融入自己，做到知己知彼

敌来我挡，

一方有难，八方支援

互相牵制，大局为重。


July 12th, 2008 at 4:00 am

Joker

It was a nice day that we decided to watch Batman series:The Dark Knight. Normally I will notattracted by this kind of heroic movie such as Superman; the guy who wear thered underwear outside, Spiderman; the movie make Yiren pretended as sick andtook leave from the school just to watch it and also Batman, I’m not a big fanof these movie, however, I did spent RM 12 to watch the movie with my friends.

It was the second day of the movie launching, therefore weall only get the ticket that sat on the second row in the cinema and I feellike we are actually looking at the sky instead of the screen. The movie was started at 12.30 a.m., and I mso excited.

Batman fight with the Joker, for me, my focus point isn’t onBatman, but is on the Joker, a tricky role in the movie with many ideas, moreprecisely, with many bad ideas. The person who fighting not for the money, forfun?

He can burned the hard-earn money (well, through guns) andhe say he isn’t particular interested in money, but he like the process, he wantsthe challenge, if he can use his intelligent at a right place, then he can bevery successful, but he chose to use it atthe wrong place.
The movie has brought many messages to us. Especially thejoker, literally joker is derivative from joke.

Who are not jokers? If let’s say our life is a stage, thenwe all are playing a certain role in our life isn’t it? I’m acting as my parent’s child, my sisters’brother; I’m a cousin, friend of friends. That is the problem which is about”to act or not to act, that is the question’.

We start the movie at the moment our mama delivers us tothis colorful and wonderful world. Wewent and also will went through many stage in our life just like what I’velearn in marketing,” product life cycle” Introduction, growths, mature anddecline stage, for life, exactly same!
Every day when I read paper, I can see so many jokers arethere! He wants to overtake that position, he wants defense the position, andwho is right who is wrong. Who BOCOH there or who BOCOH here, ridiculous! If Ican categorize politician as good and bad, then he must be very very cheap politician.

There is another joker who says that the person who lookslike me, sound like me but he not sure whether is he or not. What kind of crapis that? Then is that correct correct or korek korek man? You think the courtis papa you punya meh? Oh yeah, I even can see some joker say that Mercedes Bens isbetter than Perdana V6, nonsense, the selling price of a V6 can compare with aJapanese imported car, I guess the quality must be very high, common sense la,because the maintenance cost is high, national car ma, good quality lo, thenthe spare part also expensive de ma. But then can you answer me why we stillneed to drive national car? Since the politician choose Mercedes as their car!Come on! My Myvi SE seen rather nice! I will suggest to all of you that buyMYVI la, comfortable, cheap and low fuel consumed, and the most important isnational car ma, got Malaysian car don want to buy, go and buy German car! Angryyou all la! Huh!
I also can see some of the joker is do some internationalgesture in our parliament! What is the gesture, I really don’t know, but I knowit is related to 5 fingers of your right hand and with a “hole” with your lefthand then you hit the both gesture lightly! Bingo, you are correct,correct,correct. The joker did in the parliament, the place which ismaking law, a place suppose to have many educated people in, and we call thepeople as wakil rakyat la, but is he wakil the rakyat to do that gesture at theparliament? If I do this in my school, undoubtedly, I will be sent to bilikdispline la, then kena rotan KAO KAO. Haiz, he setted up a good example to usla, wei thank you! Mama, you told me the gesture is wrong, but he does that inthe parliament…Mama…

Aiya that party reperesent Chinese de also got many jokermen! Wei, you don simply say lo, later you know la….. IAiya sorry ya…..

We have so many jokers here; I really hope Batman can comehere to fight with them, man, spider man also can la, as long as they dosomething for us la. But I m sure once the batman came here, then he only cango back to the States after 100 years, cause too many jokers here, and I willrecommend him don’t drive too fast in KL, because you may be required to….after you over speed once you catch by the police, and every deal is inRinggit.

Actually I don’t mind to pay RM1.20 everyday to read thejokers ‘ story , because the final is coming soon, and I feel sick of studying,thanks to them to bring happiness to my life to eliminate my boredom! And hope more and more joker will come outla.
And why so serious!?

Allen, tomorrow we go to La Kopi at 9am!



July 31st, 2008 at 10:24 am

中国,人

当我小学时，在学校的书展上买了一本书，叫《鸦片战争》， 当时读完后， 还没有什么感受，但是，当我在长大些，我再读了一遍， 才知道那场战争是中国历史的耻辱。

八国联军， 瓜分京城， 这些确确实实的伤害了中国人的自尊，因为外国的势力已扩张到自己的门口， 中国人也无能为力， 应此才会有 “中国人与狗不能进入”这样侮辱中国人的话。
再到日本成立伪满洲国，侵华战争， 培养自己的势力， 此时此刻， 台湾已经离开祖国的怀抱了。 南京大屠杀，平民无辜遭到滥杀。

再到国共内战， 蒋毛之争，乃至蒋退守台湾，毛控制了中国大陆，成立中华人民共和国。周总理的才智过人， 我少数欣赏的人之一。

邓小平， 个子小小， 但他做了改变中国人民运的决定， 改革开放， 把中国人面向世界，而不是背向世界。 不管黑猫白猫，会捉老鼠的就是好猫。

我时常在想，为什么我公公当时会做来南洋的决定，是因为战乱吗？饥荒?还是被卖猪仔？问不到他了，因为他在我还没出世之前就去世了。如果他没选择来马来西亚而是到别的地方的话， 我还会存在吗？

我的身份是马来西亚公民，同时也是，海外华人，华裔。 我喝马来西亚的水，和吃马来西亚的饭长大，百分之百的大马人。

小学受华文教育，谢谢那些先辈们的坚持， 我才会说，写和听华文。如果不会说，写和听华文，总是觉得怪怪的， 不完整的华人。 时常把那些不会说华文的人叫成“香蕉人”，外面是黄的，里面是白的。 在小学时还没觉得什么，因为大家都会说华语。但上到中学后，第一次看见香蕉人，我真的大开眼界， 原来世界上 还有这些不会说华文的华人， 我经历了人生的第一的文化冲突！

马来西亚，一个处于东西文化交流的地方， 我们从马六甲王朝就开始有东西方的商人来此做交易。 我们也有不同的宗教共处，回教， 基督教，兴都教，佛教，等等。 这是在其他国家看不见的。

马来西亚的确是很独特，但有些有心人特别喜欢玩弄宗教，种族课题，让人特别的失望，为了捞起政治资本，不顾后果，什么都讲。

在我的眼中，大马就像我的母亲， 照顾我，很美，温柔，温馨的。 我爱我的国家，但我的国家爱我吗？这些都会造成生分认同危机。大家多是活在一个 屋檐下的，何必每天互相攻击呢？无谓的内耗，多余！

今天看着邻国一个一个的超越了我们，还不赶快追赶， 我们就要被抛在后面啦！还在为了一些芝麻小事大争大吵。我看， 再不做点东西， 我就快到外国当外劳了。
北方的中国崛起，多多少少， 也有利于海外华人，就如海外华人需要中国，中国也是要海外华人一样，互补的关系。

One World One Dream

明天，中国即将要举办世界上的体育盛事， 奥林匹克运动会，身为龙的传人的我，也莫名的兴奋， 希望可以到现场观看，失望的是，我没有机会，没钱！哈!但，一定会看现场直播。
东亚的日本和韩国也举办过了奥运，现在才轮到中国，虽然迟了点，到总算办到了。中国人不只站了起来，而且，还准备走向世界。

生为海外华人的我在此真心的祝福中国能把奥运办到最好！

August 6th, 2008 at 10:01 pm

Holiday

Holiday: to refresh yourself, to rest your mind or to do nothing but just spending your parent hard-earn money that is the meaning of holiday to me.

I hate holiday normally, especially when Wai kong was visiting his girl like last semester, I really felt bored because no one could go out with me. But fortunately he is here for this break.
I was hoping for holiday every night before or during my final exam, because it seen rather sweet to me, I could wake up late and sleep late, watch movie and read without caring about the time, which mean I can read as late as I can! Wow!

Just to arrange to visit some place for holiday! After pick and choose like girl, me allen vince and
lean chuan finally decided to have a one-day-trip to Melacca an historical city of Malaysia. I got to admit that I couldn’t sleep before the trip because I was too exited. Fuck it, went to bed on 3 then woke up at 7am. Just gave a call to vince and allen when they were still sleeping! To wake them up, they complain because we have agreed to go to Melacca at 9am!

We reach there about 10am and we went to the famous chicken rice, ok the rice was in ball-shaped, not bad but causes us a lot. Then we went to a mosque, first time, for all of us. Then we went to a temple, of cause we pray, and the architecture of the building, it was amazing and in incredible art in the temple. We wanted to go to Qing Yun Temple, the oldest Chinese Temple in Malaysia, we keep saying this in the temple, but after that Vince realize that we actually already in Qing Yun Temple when he was shooting photo in the temple! Haha!

Alright, we tried ais kacang and visit the museums then we decided to go to Melacca tower. The tower does not seen like very tall from the ground, and I wanted to have a try! We waited for a while, the we boarded, ok well, it keep on going up and it did not seen like interesting to stop, dammit, I cannot stand it because the car and the building below seen like getting smaller and smaller. It stop at 800m from the ground, and stop there for minutes, dammit , really hope I can go down right immediately . I really cannor remember who was standing and look down, but it does scared me , I afraid that the tower will lost balance and fall down, please forgive me!
Then we went to the night market, ah, I really cannot remember the name, we try the food there! Really nice, I mean those food and girls there.

Melacca shown us its other face at night from a sunny young guy to a gentlemen. The city seen rather slow at night and romance with the moonlight. We walk at the street , just random walk. Then we went back to Nilai.

A nice trip! Oh ya thanks to Tian Wei , our guide in Melacca



August 24th, 2008 at 2:35 am

假期/Holiday

想着要用英文来完成这篇文章的，但是，游走在文字那么久，就是觉得只有华文往往能把故事的精髓带出来，英文还可以拉，尤其是 MarioPuzo ， The God father 的作者，我超爱他的文笔，往往能把读者融进他的故事里。可是还是觉得华语比较好！

还记得那天，去了马六甲后，就去大城堡找伟江先生。接着在无所事事的驱使之下，我们决定找点东西做，在细心的选择下，我们决定去他爸爸在GentingView 的Apartment呆上一或两天。接着，我们漏夜赶上云顶去。

幽静的环境，冰冷的空气，再加上绿悠悠的树木，就是我每天 起床的写照，货真价实，决无造假之意。听听那“山水”的流声，绝对是人生的最佳写意，虽然那流水声是来自附近的沟渠。
在罗伟江还在梦里的时候，我最喜欢躲在客厅里看书，当然是我大佬MarioPuzo 的书。就觉得他真是大师级的作家，少有的境界。 The Fortunate Pilgrim ，是我到目前最爱得书之一，他把平凡变成不平凡，生活的最佳写造。 叙述着一个意大利家庭移民的故事，笑中有泪，就是因为它，搞到我在考试前，连书也不想读，只想看他的书，实在太精彩了。

到了午餐时间，就驾车到Gotong Jaya 买那些超贵的鸡饭吃，在家慢慢得享受那抱昂贵的午餐，边吃边读报，看看大马有发生了什么事，顺便等伟江先生从梦中回归现实。
恭喜恭喜，他终于回来了，看着他慢慢的从房间走出来，让我想起了僵尸，行尸走肉，“你食了吗？”他问道，“食了”我答道。 接着，他又慢慢的到厕所去冲凉。

“我们上云顶去”，“ok” 。 接着我开着他的迈微朝着云顶去。 当他享受完他的午餐后， 我们决定到Starbucks Coffee 去online 跟 checkmail。 他在线上看他所谓的艺术，当然，我一点也不明白。不跟他乱了，我繼續读我的书。 在那么多地方中，我觉得Starbucks Coffee 是最好的阅读地方，毕竟他真的有那种阅读的环境，所以附了十令吉买了一杯Coffee，我一点也不心痛。当然，在那边工作的小姐也很漂亮，操着一口流利的英语，我还以为我到了英国呢，但是没有兴趣与她深入的聊下去，毕竟我到云顶是为了度假，不是为了谈恋爱。

在那边一呆就呆了5个小时，大约7点，回到梧桐再也吃晚餐，又一次的做水鱼。
买了包中国茶，叫铁观音，说回家时可以边看电影边泡茶，过些半退休的生活，好不自在。喝茶也成了我们每晚的指定动作，就是差没有打高尔夫球而已，要不然，我们真得很像uncle。

这边的环境真得很适合思考，静静的，完全与吉隆坡不一样，紧紧的。忽然间，想起了我们在云顶一起读中学的那段日子，好不开心。虽然我们当时都很不喜欢那边，但现在想想，其实那边才是最好的的求学环境，大了才明白，但不要紧，因为我们有很多美好的回忆在那边。

慢慢的捧着杯热茶走到阳台去吹冷风，闭着眼睛，感受一下冰冷的空气，让自己的呼吸随着风的速度快和慢，完完全全的把自己融进风里。与以往的假期很不一样，平常我总是会让自己很 不得空，总是把自己的行程排得满满的。这一次，我换了个方法，就是不事先安排，随波逐流，想到要到哪里就去那里。

人就是这样，一有时间就是喜欢想。想以后，想有的没的，啊，又想起她了。当我越想忘记她时，我就越忘不了她。越想证明我已不再喜欢她，事实证明我还喜欢她，做了很多东西来证明自己已经不喜欢她，到头来反倒证明自己还喜欢她，讽刺吧？！这也是我有时讨厌自己的地方。坦白说，我不知道我对她的想念还是不是真的，因为我怕我对她的想念慢慢的变成一种习惯再到依赖，如果是这样的话，我就惨了，因为依赖是很难摆脱的，习惯更是很难戒掉。如果说想念是会上瘾的话，那么我已经到了一天不相恋她就会死的地步，是吗？希望不是这样的，哈

说住两天，再到住三天，结果我们住了一个星期才下山 ，真的是明天的明天的明天。下山不是因为我们想家了，而是我们已经到了山穷水尽的地步了，再不回家，连开饭都成问题了。
人生就是一场很长的赛跑，有时觉得累了，就是需要停下来休息的时候，调整一下目标，再重新出发。要不然，有时你连你要去那里连你自己都不知道，那就真的是悲哀。如果有的让我选，我会选择不去我曾经去过的地方。如果我又的选的话，我会选择回到小时候，因为一切都是纯纯的。


September 2nd, 2008 at 10:12 am

The Modern Slave

When the door of the elevator was opened, he walked out through the door. He was tired, confused and depressed. He walked to the nearest park from his office, was thinking to find a peaceful place to rest, to get rid of the stresses and pressures from his job.

He is a lawyer, an experienced and expensive lawyer; he is famous and builds his reputation through several big cases. His rate was starting from $500 per hour, before the clients make an appointment; they need to pay him $500 no matter what.

Today, he finally decided to take a walk to the park which he could see clearly from his office, a gorgeous decorated office, all was imported Persian carpet, the china and the liquors on the desk, the Cuban cigar can never be missed on every night. He sits down on a bench, take out a cigar and light it.

The kids there were playing around, chasing each other, their laughing was large, they seen happy, and their parents were sitting on the grass and watching them. A very good picture, he though.

Just several days ago, his only daughter was married, he was in the wedding, the princess was happy. “My princess is getting married finally”, he was happy, same like every father in the world. He also meets his ex-wife in the wedding; she was with her husband, a rich businessman and they look love each other very much!

Now, sitting on the bench under a tree with a cigar. He missed and seldom participates in her daughter life, he was busied about his lawyerly jobs, was busying to represent his clients to sue others, he was absented to his daughter basketball match, he always forget his daughter’s birthday and what make his daughter angry is her father was absented to her graduation. At that time, he was busying in court, to doing a closing, and finally to win a big amount of damage.
His wife couldn’t tolerate anymore, they were arguing frequently, and the gap between them seen couldn’t be reached anymore, they finally agreed to get divorce; he did not mind how much his wife took his, because he is rich, but what he really mind is he had lost the family. He lost the one who sleep with him at the night, who warm him, who prepared him breakfast in the morning.

He always devote himself to the law firm, he spent most of his time in the firm, he works 15 hours a day, and he go back home just for sleeping. He went out to his office before the sun is rise and came back home after the sun was set, and the only time he see his daughter is before he sleep, he like to kiss her cheek before he went to bed, that is the only way he could shows his fatherly to his daughter.

He always couldn’t understand why his wife wanted him to make a choice between the family and his job, he just couldn’t understand. He built the most reputable and the most respectable law firm in the town from his barely hands, he got more than 26 partners now. His wife wanted him to spent more time to the family, so are his clients wanted him to spend more time to win the verdict. He could not get a balance point between the family and his job, which is why his wife decided to leave him. But he could not just quit his job like this, he has the responsible to take care of his clients, and some time the clients will put the huge pressure to him as when the progress of the trial isn’t go well, but what can he does to this? He already being control by his clients, he only does what the clients demanded.

He looks at the lilies in front of him, he did enjoy the little moment which is only could belongs to him with the Cuban cigar, he needs some fresh air, or maybe a vacation, but most properly will happened in his dream now, because he got to go back to work after the little break.
Actually the time of slave wasn’t finished after Lincoln, but in fact, it has turn in another form which is more mentally-oriented like what the lawyer is facing. He lost his family because of his job, he lost his mind but just follow the instruction from his clients, he is being manipulated and totally lost everything but money which can buy everything but the family.

September 11th, 2008 at 10:37 am

独角戏

那天推开那个门，发现一切根往常无异

那些东西如此熟悉却又如此陌生

思念随着乱乱的房间而没有了分寸

紧紧守着最后一道防线，不让眼泪掉

开始怀疑自己的决定，质疑自己的任性

放不下已经不在的幸福，

始终还是要学着放下

看着残留的零碎回忆，

白色的烛光 静静的在一旁哀悼已死去的爱情

天使般的升起

随着飘过的风不知飘到哪里去了

我知道我已没有勇气再爱你

让我在一旁这守着这挫折的回忆

回想自己的甜美 不再独占

在有你的回忆里漫步 播着我们的空虚

兜兜转转始终兜不出这爱你的迷宫

浑身欲裂的争扎，用力的摆脱

却是因为我怎样也不想逃脱 任由它将我摆布

将手抬高， 将思念送给空白

蹲在地上慢慢的把碎了的心从新在拼

还原后却不是想要的答案

心中的眼泪 无意中将那把火扑灭了

狂叫 他也不会醒 就连再见也没说

任由我独自在唱独角戏


September 20th, 2008 at 1:20 am

心灵幼苗

在浩瀚的沙漠里，有一个小小的影子在漫漫的前进 。走在红色的太阳底下 他热的快发疯了 他已经在这个沙漠里迷了路很久 看着茫茫的前景， 汉不停的流 。 令到他慌张的是在这沙漠里到处看起来都是一样的，不管他怎样走，他似乎又回到原来的地方，他迷失了自己，因为他被沙漠里奇奇怪怪的东西吸引着而脱离的大队。

在他迷失自己的这段时间，他不停的骂自己，怪自己，一直问自己为什么，问什么会搞成这样，迷失了心中的路标，搞到自己那么的狼狈，他猜想说他可能错过了几次与外界会合的机会，却坚持的相信自己的任性，而不愿去猜。

在这沙漠里，除了沙之外，什么也没有，废话，他心想。天空一旁盘旋的秃鹰，正在对他俯视，应该是在打他的注意，他也懒得鸟它们，他继续走他的。 摸摸他的水壶，却是空空的，他已经很久没有喝过水了，他在向 上帝祷告。

在这炎热的沙漠里，竟然静得很诡异，风声徐徐的经过，把他的心吹得也动摇了，甚至连他对他自己的信心也开始出现了危机，这是不曾发生过的事情。 奇迹，奇迹，它需要的是奇迹。
就在他最需要奇迹的时候，突然间他看到了一片绿洲，他希望这一次不是幻影，他加快了脚步，一步一步地走向那绿洲。

在那里，他第一件事就是冲向那滩水那边，大口大口的喝水，妈的，虽然水质有点差，可是有好过没有。 他就是不知道是幸运还是不幸运，幸运的是，他终于喝到水了，不幸的是，他还在这个沙漠里，看着被沙尘蒙着的前景，不知该何去何从。

忽然之间他在面前出现了奇怪的东西，绿绿的，他缓缓的着向前去看。一步，两步的走。当他走到那东西面前时，他顿时傻了眼，因为那是一颗刚刚发芽的幼苗。
为何在这恐怖的沙漠里会有这样的东西？如果是仙人掌的话，那到还无所谓 ，可是它是不知什么植物的幼苗，还长着两片绿色的叶子，似乎很嚣张的对他示威，因为这小小的创造物的生命力竟然比他本人还要顽强，硬是在这边生存了下来。

当他以为不可能的东西，竟然发生在他眼前，好像他眼前的小小幼苗一样，是奇迹吗？还只是某种的巧合？那么巧被他看见？毕竟在这沙漠里，很久都没有雨水滋润，很难会有什么生命存在。
他把那个幼苗连根拔起，再把它的根部放在水里，他打算带着他一起走，另一方面是因为这幼苗可以陪着他，另一方面，他不打算让这幼苗在这无情的沙漠里独自面对着冷酷的风暴。也因为这幼苗然他见识到什么是奇迹，当他在绝望的时候。

他对自己暗暗的对自己说，他会好好的保护着刚刚，很难得，的幼苗，守着那幼苗，到成长，再到永远。陪它面对无论任何事情。他突然自信的很，也不再那么的悲观。
再过不久，那迷路的人也被找回了，而他的生活也回到了正常。因为那幼苗把色彩待进了这沙漠，不再是黑与白那么简单。无意闯入的幼苗，竟然在这固执沙漠里创造了不可能的奇迹。

October 6th, 2008 at 1:15 am

Memory

There is something that you cannot touch, sense or see, but, indeed, it is living deep in our mind, maybe in somewhere in the corner in our mind.
Memory is the most wonderful thing in our life beside of love. Why would I say memory is the most wonderful thing in human’s life beside of love? Because it is just like the memory in our computer and it is able to “record” everything that happened in our life.
When we are thinking something already happened in our life, our brain will search that part of memory automatically, and it just like a projector, it projects all the memories in our mind. You can either recall back your memory open the eyes, or close your eyes, but I will suggest you that better recall back closing your eyes, if not, it might scared the people who were sitting around you.
Some would purposely choose to erase some part of their memory, because it is very sad and unbearable, some would purposely remember that particular memory or memories, because it is so good to them, like their birthday party, first kiss or first love.
So, how to create memory? What a good question. Creating memory isn’t like creating any tangible product, because produce a tangible product is very easy; just by using the materials then assemble them, that is all. But creating the intangible or abstractive thing like memory is more difficult, sometimes; it might need some skills or tactic? Hehe , if not, a good memory will turn into a nightmare accidently.
The most important thing in a memory is the content itself in that memory. Who were you together with in the memory? Your family, friends or lover? Friends and family is very common in our memory, because family member is always the part of our memory since we were born, so are our friends, we growth up together, we share most our memory in school time, and we always discover something together. But, lover is very special case, tow stranger were came from different background can be together, how wonderful is it. Then they fell in love, and they intrude each others’ life. In the other word, they are creating the memory together! Since then, their memories are inter-connected. No matter how bitter is it, when you look back , you will feel sweet, no matter how sad you are, when you look back, you will feel happy, no matter how fool you are, you will smile at the corner alone.
I always believe that people are always living at the moment, because I m so realistic, it doesn’t means that I don’t have memory, because I will take it as very meaningless if we keep indulge ourselves in our memories. But somehow, a girl had told me, people are living in the memories, hehe, I guess that is the difference between guy and girl. Living in the memory, it sounds so interesting and romantic, not bad!
I strongly agree that we should write down what were happened in our life, because it is memory. If we did not write it down, then I will call the memory as “baseless” memory, because next time, if you want to find the evident, it is not recorded. Then I will call the memories that has been recorded , then I would call that memories as “based memory”, it is different to dairy, because dairy required to write every day, but memory is no need, you only need to write down when “memory” is happened, all depend on yourself.
Alas, memory, memory, memory, do you really existed? I know some people say that you cannot denial the existence of god just because you couldn’t touch , sense or see Him, just like memory, you cannot say it is doesn’t existed just because you cannot see, touch or sense it. Memory is always turning in our mind, to make us happy, sad, or smile. If you ask me, after I die, what thing that I hope to leave to the world, and then I would choose my memory, because my memory is always sweet one!

October 13th, 2008 at 9:06 am

Exam

Every time before my final exam is coming, I definitely will have a thousand ideas, reason or suggestion why exam should not be the measurement to measure the performance of a student, no matter a pupil, secondary student, undergraduate or post-graduate level.

I hate exam, yes it is, it makes me likes a study machine, non-stop. Many pupils has put most of their time in study, tuition class, or maybe piano class. But who really care what they need at that age actually? What their parent care is how many A they can get of their children, so that they can show to others how smart are their children, then in my opinion, children is just their property but not their children, if they really care about their children, then the parent should let them enjoy their childhood. The parent should bring them to zoo, if they want the children to know the different species; the parent should bring them to beach or countryside so that they are closer to natural, but not buries them in books! Terrible!

I’m fortunate enough that having an understanding mother, who never forced me to study. What she care is our moral value; she said that is no point if you get good results but you go and do some outlaw stuff. She will fully support me if I become a cleaner, as long as we have the right attitude and the correct behavior. It may sound ridiculous to some of you, but it is thankful to my mum so that my mind is not restricted by those so call ‘’education’’, I always come out with many opinion, and what I know isn’t merely get from textbook, but from the book that I bough, and my mother always support me to read more books others than textbook.

I was surprised when my friend said he had to go to tuition class for 7 days in a week, some more some of the day he is went to 2 tuition classes in a day! Oh my god! But somehow, the achievement that he achieve doesn’t seem great, because, even though I’m not study in those so-call ‘’smart class’’ (how could possible the ministry of education classified the students by smart or not smart) but I got a good result when I represent my school to participate in quiz competition, in fact, I m the only one who are from those’’ not smart’’ class to represent my school to participate in Daerah-level quiz competition, and I got the champion under many suspicious .I can see my class teacher almost cry when I go to see her, she told me that actually many teacher has actually doubt my ability to represent our school to that competition. From her eyes, I can see, she is proud of me. Hey I made it! So who said those students from not-smart class cannot perform well! Hey, hey, hey wake up!

Until my secondary school, I really sick of it, secondary school is actually the factory that produces the machine that call “study-machine” so that the machine can launch to market and working for those capitalist because our secondary school did not teach us to think or to judge something according to our self, you want an example? Ha ha, the best example is our moral subject. Why we have to memorize all the moral value with their definition together? If you define the moral value that not according to the definition that provided by the teacher, then your definition is wrong! Gosh! Didn’t it sound ridiculous!? I still remember I always argue with the teacher, but every time I got the same answer, just follow the instruction. That is why every time in moral class, I always make noise or rather walks out from the class to go somewhere as long as not in the class room! If you can memorize all the definition precisely from text book, does that mean you are a moral person? Arguable!

That is why I seldom went to class when I was form 5, I really hate the way of study, the only reason to make me went to the class is all my friends were there. In fact, the time that I spent in KINOKUNIYA is more then I spent in school! Because I can learn whatever I want to learn, and no one will force me to memorize what I have learn!

If Bertrand Russell (a British philosopher) is still alive, then I think he definitely will faint if he saw our education system! This is complete against what he advocates. What he suggest is let the student judge a fact by themselves, more ‘’independent thinking’’ rather than the teacher keep feeding the know ledges to the student. And he also suggests that the teacher or the lecturer should encourage the student to ask question and participate in discussion. He is right; our current education will kill the creativity of students! But what can we do?

I used to read an article which is very interesting, I would like to shred with you, that the article says that actually those student really able to move the whole library’s book into their mind, but the problem is they never open the book and read, because they just memorize it! So why so happy if you can memorize the entire book but did not understand it! May God bless you!

Now looking at my desk, full of notes that need to digest, really sick! Why shouldn’t I take a rest to express my unsatisfaction toward such thing!

October 27th, 2008 at 9:03 am

烟花

还记得那天，闷闷的，没事做

一个人走到阳台上抽烟，

突然间看见远处有人在放烟花，很美，很灿烂

相必是在庆祝什么吧？

看着那细小的火，慢慢的升空，停顿，再到释放出耀眼的火花

很是吸引我。

在想，短短的一瞬间，为什么能够那样的吸引人？

或许，它的美，就是在于它的短暂。

看是瞬间的刹那，却似如此的永恒

就好像人生一样，虽然短，但也一样的吸引人。

慢慢一步一步的走

逮到机会就大紫大红，变成一颗耀眼的星星

过后，就回归平淡

跟她，也可用烟花来形容

瞬间的永恒，短暂的永远，刹那地回忆

释放出耀眼的火花后就只剩黑暗

或许，这故事一开始就不该发生

因为，没有开始，就没有结束

没有结束，就没有结局

如果我跟你的认识是上帝设计好的玩笑

那我认输，它赢了

就算这故事的结果是没有结果，

它总是还是要一个结局来交待剧情

这次，我不会在任由任何外在因素来控制着这故事的发展

因为我想用我自己的方式来完成

真正的照着我的意志去跑

我要亲手写上这故事的句号。


November 1st, 2008 at 8:11 am

情,这样东西

凡人阿，凡人，几时方能放下这难以放下的东西

心里明白跨过那界限的后果

无限情动换来的却只有无限感慨

每次却蠢蠢欲动

真爱，或者是一种隐形的武器，

杀人不用见血，亦无法律责任

干的漂漂亮亮

它就像很多无形的绳子将人控制着

心甘情愿的做他的傀儡任它摆布

为它赴汤蹈火简直还容易过吃饭

为何，为何，为何

多少的痴男怨女为了他们的爱

还在痛苦的边缘苦苦争扎

却没有反击没胆还是懦弱

上一秒还没感觉

下一秒就爱上了谁

口叼着烟子，看远方的屋子

心想着马子，放不下的担子

烦人的脑子，在屋里的院子

长不大的小子，思念着那个女子

尘世间最烦人的东西莫过于此

干他老娘的*—……%￥

January 16th, 2009 at 12:43 am

烟子,这样东西

曾经想要戒掉烟子这样东西

但是却是怎么要戒也戒不了

出于需要,出于习惯,我不懂

喜欢在深夜的时候,叼着烟子,看戏打字

那种快乐,我看,连神仙也不懂

吞云吐雾,好不开心

曾经问过自己,为什么要抽烟

想来想去,只有觉得从经济的角度来解释最好

当我们拿钱出来买烟子时,其实,我们也在间接

的在推动我们的经济

卖烟子的,批发烟子的,种烟草的,政府抽的税

完全都在靠烟客们的支持

后来,又发现好象不大对,因为有人从健康的角度说服了我

结果,干脆认了吧,就是惹上了烟瘾,

当然,还是要为烟产们说说好话

人的时间可以分为工作的,朋友的,家人的,和自己的

当然又以工作占了大部分的时间

家人其次,朋友第三,再来才轮到自己

自己的时间是没有任何人打扰的,静静的

难得没人打扰,当然希望来根香烟

在那过程里面,把烦恼暂时抛到九霄云外

就是把注意力放在烟子上

顺着烟的进出,慢慢的呼吸,开始放松

当你放松时,很多解决不到的问题,都可以一一解决

冷静又突然的灵感会想洪水般突然的涌现

源源不断,乱中有序,序中有乱,一发不可收拾

而我当然写的很开心

很多话都是靠着烟子想出来的

很多朋友也是靠着烟子认识来的

多想随着那缕烟化成空气票到她身边

看看她好吗

喔,我看还是不要随着那缕烟化成空气票到她身边

因为她不喜欢烟味.


January 19th, 2009 at 10:08 am

Appreciation

Just buried ourselves into our work, so concentrated on it. Seconds, minutes, hours, daily, monthly, and yearly, we repeat the same thing routinely. We only can get ‘’happy’’, or ‘’ourselves’’ when we are pursuing in our studies or job.

We seldom put our head up, to see, how nice the sky is at night, there are so many stars, shining, shining stars just because we put our head down on the work. We seldom listen to the buzzing of the bee, chirping of the bird, the nicest melody of the natural, just because we always buried ourselves into our work.

There are someone who together with who, who broke up with who, it just merely a scenario of life, bagatelle. How many people want to reunion with their love ones in that aero plane, how many people are leaving the country with the broken heart in that aero plane, I would not know, and there is about tears and laughing.

When we look around, oh, we let the most valuable things slip away from us, the love ones, the miss ones. Whose heart was broken by the ignorance from us, whose heart was broken when they went away, I understand that.

When things, whatever, run away from us, it just like an illusion of yesterday in the memory, merely a phantom that had appeared in our mind, never been true. Was it real? Was it false? No one will know. But it did occupied some places in our heart and mind which hardly to get rid of.
The same thing was there, the same places were there, but the same people weren’t there, but the feeling is still the same. You will never step into the same river twice, so to your love one.
Cogito,ergo sum, I think therefore I am. Is it true? Life just like a flowing river, once something gone, then it only can be your memory, it is merely an illusion.

The only true is when you really appreciate everything that been happened around, and that is true. When you appreciate something, no matter how our time and space flow, it is permanent, eternally. If you did not appreciate it, it just temporally, it will go away soon. So, I appreciate, therefore I am.

When you walk away, you bring all his feeling and smile together. He is wearing a mask toward others, never been truly himself. When you gone, he knows his feeling was together with you when you are boarding to fly away to another country. It is not a completely him
Standing on the mountain high, everything was under him, but it is not enough, because he feels cold and no one gives him a bit of warm. He feels lonely because he is alone. He feels sad because you cannot share the night view together with him.

The best way to walk away from the illusion is to appreciate, appreciate everything that you have or used to had, from memory to her, from your family to your friends, then you are really truly yourself, then you are truly living at the moment, if not, it just something like a dream, you can feel it, you remember it, you can touch it , but it wasn’t true.


February 24th, 2009 at 9:21 am